Thinking of future

Today i just went to sepang gold coast, I did community service with all my friend and I take the trash and put it in the plastic bag that we bring from home...

group photo

After that, I went back home to do FOB assignment n i forgot that today got futsal practice..

futsal practice with korean guys... I missed it, but it not make me disappointed..\

The feeling that make me disappointed is my future, i donno what future i gonna have..
is it bright or just enjoy the fun..
seems so blur nowadays and feel like all my dream wont come true..
i need you GOD to bring my spirit back, because lately i felt that im no energy to do many thing for my future..

I just thinking, how to graduated soon as possible from this college.. I just wanna graduated with good mark..

Many thing come out from my brain n donno to who i tell the story..
my gf, but not now i think..
because my future is all about her and i wanna make her happy... I donno the way how to make her happy, seems so............... T_T

donno what to say, i miss her a lot then she knows...

I just wanna beside her and comfort her everything that she need...

I really miss her a lot, i miss my family too..
i dont dare to see them when they arrive in malaysia arround 30 of june...

my feeling

Lately when my bb was broken n i cant fix it, i feel like im in the middle of the jungle n cant survive without black berry..
feel so sad about it, because i cant communicate nicely with my gf and cant say I love u...
Haiz, feel like upset and feel not nice about broken bb...
thats why our communication is very rare n i donno what to do..
just webcaming with her in the skype, i can feel her here beside me n talk with me life...
hahaha...

her picture when webcaming with me

I miss her so much, wanna hug her or give a night kiss..
hug you dear..

Suddenly when i saw her status in fb, i surprised why she said that "look at me, you may think you see who i really am..

but you'll never know me... syalalala :]~~"

I donno what to say... I stunning with this senteces..

feel like My world is the end of my way...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZfMLpHfDcR8

this song is really touching, because i keep dreaming that u be my bride and i'll make it be a reality dear..
dont worry..
i'll keep it as my promise and i'll mean it my promise..
love you always..

I know she wasnt a pair of sandals that when I feel boring i can change with a pair of shoes whenever I like..
Nowadays i feel like different and I donno wth im doing with my lovely pair of sandals..
I really wanna take care of you and I just dont want to lost you anymore..

argh!! @@

I just woke up, then suddenly my Best friend Algier called me..
Because he need help from me for receive his drink from his mom, then i cant wake up..
sorry buddy I over slept and i really didnt mean it, it was my mistake to over slept..
because when I came back from KL i was not good..
it really fucked me up, I was upset too about this condition....
I hope he nows that im really sorry and it wont happen again in the future...
I SUER FOR MY ENTIRE LIFE..
OVERSLEPT o0o!!

Arrrrrr.....
sometimes i feel like i wanna lying in my bed and skip all the activity that i have in malaysia..
seems so hard for me..
because I can't divided the time nicely..
nowadays i dont have time to webcam with my GF...
I miss her so much, then how i gonna tell her..
That my heart is really lonely without her, How I gonna tell her that i miss her...
hua.. :'(
really make me sad..
just now i bbm with her, then I feel tired and really sleepy..
feel like so lazy to go out for eat, then my friend force me to eat..
Then i eat with them, then I told my GF that Im not sleep yet..
suddenly she dont reply at all, and my bb also got problem..
argh..
Seems so mafan one..>.<
I just wanna have my time with PRISCILLA ADHELIA...
Then Saturday I gonna go Bukit bintang to book the hotel for her to stay, i search the nice place to her that really near to the food so she not really difficult one to find a food..
I care with Priscilla adhelia..

Please GOD, I just wanna be with her and please take care of her..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NAc83CF8Ejk&feature=g-all-a&list=PL09CD7E97CC2BB303&context=G2e73156FAAAAAAAAAAA
This one really nice song and make me that no one can't replace her from my life and my heart..
Love her so much and Im not only talk crap about it

DOWN..

I really "down" today..
Got many news that make me sad n i donno how to say..
first of all, my marketing result was not in there..
they said, im took FOB but in fact im not take that subject..
Im taking FOB only for this semester, thats why I was so shock heard that..
After that, any news make me sad.
All my resit paper result change into retake..
DAMN!!!!!!!
Really pissed and I donno how to do now..!!!
Confuse, dilemma, and feel head ache..
I hope this semester no more resit and retake any subject that can break my parent heart..
IS ENOUGH!! I feel so sad and a bit disappointed...